She left me at the bus stop
crying, bewildered, lost, and confused
She left at the bus stop short on change, running late, on a rainy day.
She left me at the bus stop sitting next to my kids. We sat and waited for her return, but she never did.
She left me at the bus stop not once, not twice but three times. I am no victim here, I am a fool yes in love perhaps. But a fool blinded by hope of one day finding her again next to me at the bus stop
Why I struggle is not easily explained or understood
Many say work harder, stop stressing be happy
I hope you understand my life is lived in the space where I know to survive.
I like the feelings of fight or flight it makes feel alive and purposeful, l like to be in crisis mode cause I'm great at hero play.
I fail to comprehend any other life, where the pain is less. And toil would mean no struggle and stress free time.
I can't leave what I know and is killing me daily.
What am I pursuing?
Rear view mirror tell me what do you see?
My carcass filled with want of praise, approval of those I loved and those i did not.
A life of half measures and indecision's
I see the face of worry observing greatness not achieved.
I see poverty, physically and spiritually. I see the sun as it hides behind yesterday.
Our life filled with the desire to be blind to the impostor looking at us in the rear-view mirror.
Quietly I adjust in my seat and turn my head and you see me just as I am, and a smile of love blossoms towards me.